How A Voicemail Can Change Everything

On Thursday, I was on the phone at work when my cell phone rang.  I glanced at the caller ID, expecting the call to be from Derek.  The name on the caller ID was my RE's office.  My mind immediately wandered away from the work call - I couldn't concentrate on anything the caller was saying and couldn't get off of the phone fast enough.  Since we aren't pursing any treatments and I hadn't called to ask any questions or to check in, I couldn't fathom why they would be calling me. 

When I finally got my caller off the phone, I checked to see if there was a voicemail.  That glorious little red circle with a 1 in it told me that I had a message waiting.  As I heard the voice, my heart started to race, my palms started to sweat.  And as I listed to the entire message, my spirit lifted higher than it has been in months.  Why you ask???  Not only are we currently NUMBER 1 on the list...

WE HAVE EMBRYOS AVAILABLE!!!

The donor coordinator sent me a profile over via email to review to see if we were iinterested.  Should we choose to pass on this set, we would still be first in line for the next set available.

But it gets better.

These embryos are the results of a cycle from a donor egg cycle.  We were able to review the characteristics of both parents (as well as all pertinent medical information and even information about their personalities).  Anyway, these physical traits could very well pass for a child that would have been biologically related to us.  There is a specific virus that I would have had to be exposed to for us to be a match for these embryos, so I am trying to keep my excitement in check until we get these results back in.

But, considering the fact that we are first in line, I think that some excitement is in order.  And the donor coordinator indicated that even if we weren't a match for these embryos, there is another set available and that she won't be doing anything with those until our test results are back in. 

You may recall where I posted here in June about how we were currently sitting at spot number 13 on the donor embryo list at our clinic.  I had all but given up hope that we would ever make it to the top of the list.  And here we are, a little over a month later, at the top of the list and with embryos waiting.

If everything goes well, we could be transferring by October.  We will only get one shot, so I guess that this will be our "Hail Mary" attempt. 

Put me in Coach, I'm Ready to Play... 

A Baby - Maybe?

That got your attention, didn't it???  Before I explain the title of this post, I have to make another couple of random statements.

I know - it has been a while and I apologize.  But the truth is that since we have been on "hold" on the adoption front, there hasn't really been much to blog about.  My mom always said "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all."  Hence my silence.  I haven't really had a lot of positive thoughts about us becoming parents.  Between 2 showers for my very pregnant friend and watching my staff member's belly swell with her sweet bundle of joy and hearing about my co-workers 16 year old giving birth, I have just been in the pits myself.  So I am sorry if my absence and lack of commenting has offended or hurt anyone.  I do love you all dearly and I apologize.  I have been reading all of your posts.

The only positive things I have to say are that our A/C broke during a time with 85 degree spring weather.  The master bath STILL isn't done and I am afraid it will never be done.  I hate my job.  And I barely survived ran a 5K last week.  What, those weren't positive statements?  Yeah, I am in a funk.

Now - on to the topic at hand - A BABY - MAYBE?

Another co-worker of mine approached me about a baby that was born into her family last week (he is absolutely adorable, BTW!).  He was born to a set of parents who don't have custody of their first child.  The night the baby came home from the hospital, the father OD'd and DFCS stepped in again.  The baby is with a family member right now.  The point is that she asked if Derek and I would be willing to consider adopting this little boy.  She isn't 100% sure that the mother and father are willing to give the baby up for adoption, but she feels fairly certain that they would definitely be interested, especially if there were some financial compensation in it for them. 

I explained to her the types of adoption we would be interested in, told her that we would only pay the compensation legally allowable by the state of GA, and that we were not interested in foster care.  I told her that if all of this were agreeable to the birth parents, we would be willing to see if we could make this work.

My co-worker is finding out what the situation is.  There was a hearing with DFCS today and apparently the mother indicated that she was considering adoption.  The mother also showed up to the hearing under the influence of some sort of drug.  There is supposed to be a second court hearing in a couple of weeks to re-evaluate the situation.

I am trying to have the attitude that if it was meant to be, everything will work out and the baby will come to us.  I am also trying to keep myself from seeing any glimmer of hope in this situation until things become clearer.  If she does, indeed, want to allow the baby to be adopted, and she does want to consider us as the parents of her child, then we will go from there.  We will contact a lawyer to find out what the next steps are.

Regardless of the outcome for Derek and I, I will be praying that this little baby be in a home where he can be loved and can be given the best chance to survive and thrive.  I sincerely believe the biological parents aren't going to provide that home.  Please help me pray for this little one to be safe and happy.

And now...Well, we wait.