My Resolutions/Goals

I have never been much of a resolution type of person.  But for some reason, I thought this year might be a good idea to have some.  So, here they are, in no particular order.

• I resolve to cut out (or at least drastically reduce) my usage of profanity.  I have been so angry over the last few years that I have found that I drop the F bomb much more often that I would like.  And when we finally bring a child into our home, I don't wan their first word to be Fu#%.  You know?  Plus, I don't think the social worker completing our Home Study would be too impressed if I answered her questions swearing like a sailor.  Progress at the moment:  So far, this resolution has not been a success.  I am trying, but this one will have to be a work in progress.  Rome wasn't built in a day and the profanity didn't get this bad overnight.  I need to ween myself off.
• I resolve to not obsess over POAS or ovulation or BDing during our "window" each month of this year.  And I will NOT let the 2WW rule my life this year.  Progress at the moment:  Pretty darned good.  I didn't even write down the first day of my cycle on my calendar.  Aren't you proud?  I guess I should probably figure out the next approximate date of her arrival so that I can have the necessary supplies on hand.  But I really don't feel like it.  I think I will throw caution to the wind and just avoid wearing white pants.  I have gone back to drinking coffee with the caffine in it. I drink wine WHENEVER I FEEL LIKE IT!!! So THIS is how the other half lives???
• I resolve to not put things in my life on hold because of upcoming fertility treatments or possible impending pregnancy (or now adoption related matters).  Progress at the moment:  Looking pretty good.  So far, a discussion regarding a possible vacation did not send me into hysterics, not once did I consider not going due to the fact I might be PG, not once did I consider anything other than "Does that sound like fun?"  It was QUITE liberating.  It was a glimpse of what life was like before I became obsessed with TTC.
• I resolve to lose the last of that infertility weight.  Progress so far:  Not so good.  I have yet to start a diet or head to the gym.  But I am not too concerned about it right now.  I have gone back to eating healthier (pre-holiday eating) and that is the first step.
• I resolve to try to be in a healthier place when dealing with OPP (Other People's Pregnancies).  You know, let go of the resentment that it will NOT BE ME.  Progress so far:  Pretty good if I say so myself.  I have an employee who I think is about to announce that she is lapping me for the second time.  And, a co-worker and his wife that were undergoing IVF treatments informed me today that they are expecting.  Twins.  And I took it like a champ.  So, I think I am doing pretty good so far.

There you have it.  The goals of an infertile trying to figure out how to fit back into the fertile world while moving forward with reshaping her hopes/dreams...