Beta # 3, 21dp5dt

Sorry it has taken so long for me to update you all on the big scare today.  We have been quite busy.

I got in touch with Nurse J around 9:30 this morning.  She indicated that the fact that the bleeding had stopped was a good sign.  Although this was a good sign, I asked if there was anything else that they could do to offer me some reassurance.  She indicated that they would prefer not to do an ultrasound - it was too early to see a heartbeat and they felt a better idea would be for us to do another Beta.  She offered to hold their courier so that we could get the results back today.

Derek and I got in the car and drove to Alpharetta as quickly as we could.  After the blood draw, our Doctor and Nurse J talked to us.  They said over and over again that they really felt that it was nothing to worry about.  The bleeding could have been from my cervix, my vagina, or my uterus (and hopefully not the uterus).  Although I disagreed with this statement, Nurse J indicated that we would want to see anything 900 or above because of a possible plateau.  I think she didn't want me to have high hopes on a very high number.

They called this afternoon with my results - 11,708.  So, well above 900.  And, by my calculations, fairly close to doubling every 2 days.

So, it appears that the bleeding this morning was a false alarm.  The bleeding is probably related to the vaginal progesterone inserts that I am using.  I really hope this is the only episode of bleeding that I have.  I was really positive that I had lost the baby(ies).  Derek and I laid in the bed for those miserable 4 hours - holding each other and crying over how unfair it was.  When the bleeding slowed, we were finally able to fall into a fitful sleep.  Waiting on those test results was excruciating.  And when the results came in, I can't explain the relief I felt.  I said several prayers of thanks this afternoon.

To all of you who offered support, I appreciate all of your kind thoughts and your statements to help to calm me.  I don't know how anyone could survive infertility like the friends I have found in this community.  Thank you so much for all of the love.  Those of you who prayed, please keep them coming.